Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Heart of Darkness

Heart of Darkness was written in 1902 by Joseph Conrad and is one of the more overhelming books I have ever read. It's explosive to the mind, actually. I finished it yesterday and haven't stopped thinking of it since. Gosh, you have no idea, those who haven't read it. You have to try it. Here we go.

Heart of Darkness is a novella and a frame story written in first person. It's very interesting in that though it's in first person, most of the story is heard from the voice of a Charlie Marlow who our narrator is listening to. The contribution of the narrator is minimal, as is the present time of the book as most of it takes place in the past. The whole story is just whacked, distanced, unreliable because of it and realistic because of that, and so, overall down-right frightening. I recall calling The Secret Sharer unbelievably unrelaible because the Captain was crazy-ish. Well, I don't know about the narrator here, but Marlow, man does he need help. This guy is crazy and you watch him get crazy. This will be fun. Honest.

The story: Unnamed narrator is on a boat with five other guys on the Thames near London. One of the guys, Charlie Marlow, starts talking about how he got a job on a boat in Africa a while back and went to Congo. In Congo, a bunch of stuff happens, mostly revolving around how terribly the whites treat the natives, how strange things are and grotesque and eerie, and how eveypne seems to be in such reverence for this man Kurtz. Marlow then meets Kurtz after a bunch of difficulties and finds that Kurtz is just as remarkable and a genius as everyone had said, but Kurtz is now very sick and also tainted with a want for fame and fortune. Marlow is there when Kurtz dies and hears Kurtzs last words "The horror. The horror!" and then goes back to England. A year later he meets Kurtz's fiancee, tells her that the last words were her name and finally we end with the five guys and narratror looking towards where the river leads, looking into the heart of darkness that is actually Western culture or more specifically, London.

The characters are the most important aspect of a book. Gosh I've said that so many times, by now you have to believe me. The charcaters are the most important aspect of a book. Here we have marlow and we have Kurtz and then we have England and Congo as wholes really, unless we want to split the natives and the whites. Well, we have Marlow. Let's talk writing style.

So the style starts out amazingly beautiful and long-winded by the narrator and then just gets confusing a bit but simplistic enough with Marlow speaking. As the story goes on, the writing gets more and more philisophical, dense, personal, opininated, and since Marlow's opinions turn out to be more and more dark, the writing turns more and more creepy, especially since it is told in a rather matter-of-fact tone. By this time, gosh, you have to have a pretty good vocabulary. I write the words I don't know on my arm to look up later, usually, but for this book, it was impossible. My arm was covered. Well, the sophistication gets insane, but the style to is what really messes you up. You really have to read it to understand. He sort of jumps from one idea to the next very abruptly, and also jumps perspectives too, narrating the words of others, often lacking quotation marks, and the paragraphs get really long too. And you go out of the action into the mind,, going on the long streams of thought that Marlow has, and then his comments on these thoughts, a bit of action that you don't even notice because of all the surrounding thought and dream, and then you emerge out of the fog of speculation and you fid yourself without a clue as to what people are talking about, you go back and read that whole thought tornado again, find the action, go "Oh..." and then go back a couple other pages, go "Oh...huh?....Oh..." again ad then finally move on to repeat again. That's the book. That's just Marlow too. Actually more than understanding absolutely everything that happens, more important is the effect of all this. As things grow more confusing, it's as though Marlow has commandeered one part of your brain to use as a practical example in showing you just how he lost his mind and as he is conducting this experiment, he loses grip on this sanity he has grown back, and insane the experiment grows into quite the epidemic and you just go crazy reading it. That's Marlow talking and it's very effective and it's unconscious. But then there's Conrad doing his bit too as the narrator. He does all this stuff with time, jumping in and out of past and present and past and present within Marlow too. There's just so much eeriness going around and so many brain bombs. The style says it all.

Now that I comunicated that, I just don't know what to say. The thing with this book is that it's so rich that you just get lost as to what to think afterward. I bet if someone straight-up asked me a question about it, like told me to write an essay on...somethng, I would do it, and well too, but now just free and wandering, it's just, well, the book is amazing. All you want to say is quotations. They're long though...

Wow, well, let me latch on to something. Umm.. alright got it. So Marlow hears a whole lot about Kurtz before actually meeting him. That's interesting. He gets this pre-created idea of Kurtz and these prejudices before actually seeing him and then when he meets him, it's a bit confusing. He hears a lot of praise of him, that he's a genius, a Renaissance man, that he can paint, write, later on that he's a musician too, and that he's a mastermind at hunting down ivory. He's hypnotic too. He has a voice that can convince you of anything and just demand conformity from you. All this he hears and there's also the way he hears it too. He hears it from these creepy natives that are zombie-like in that they are a bit vague in thought about him, and being abused too, you get the whole idea of them being broken into by Kurtz. There's just such a mystery surrounding Kurtz, further intensifies, of course by that nobody's ever actually seen Kurtz. I mean, he's a phantom. So all that is very interesting, but personally, if I had spent three months surroundedby sinister beings and heard this, I think I'd be a bit too scared to meet kurtz and instead of revering him, I'd fear him. Marlow though feels inspired, I suppose. He imagines Kurtz as a voice more than anything else and wishes to speak to him more than anything else. So yeah, voices, creepy. I guess this idea is the one most well-shown in Apocalypse Now, which is worth watching by the way. There's this part in the movie where you see Brando as Kurtz for the first time after hearing about him for so long, (and in the movie, Willard, the movie version of Marlow, actually hears Kurtz's voice over a cassette first) and you see him for a full maybe three minutes befor you actually see his face. I mean you see this gold light on his creepy bald head and meaty ears and neck and hands and everything, hearing his voice rumbling, shivers, but you do not see the face for ever. It's maddening. You actually feel like you're going insane waiting for it. And then you see it, and the face, I mean, Marlon Brando doesn't exactly have the most unthreatening face, but in the end, the face is human but soehow itlooks like a monster. The book does the same thing but even better. The voice, the voice, Marlow obsessing and revering for no reason, the voice, the want to meet him, all the way through, the river, gettiing closer, the steerer dying, the eeriness, the stakes with heads, the natives, the grotesque atmosphere all around and then the voice again, obsessively and finally, finally you meet Kurtz and it just happens so abruptly. He just appears really suddenly and he's absolutley insignificant. he's frail, sickly and immediately Marlow is astounded.

You know, this may be one of the worst blogs I've written. You know, that's probably just because I'm trying to describe a dream. That's what this book is, a very well-written dream, and well-written because when it is over, all you have with you, all you have left is an impression of what happened. You could read analyses of this book. You could read a whole bunch of them because there is literally no limit to things that people can say about it, but in the end, while analyses can be infinitely helpful for many books that mean to articulate a message or show a beautiful plot or person, this one is different. This is my first reading, mind, and that means I'm still absolutely an idiot when it comes to this book. Still, though my argument stands. What you analyse when reading a book is what the author does to create the book, and that is like pulling apart a flower to see how it's created. The beauty of a flower can very well be the individual cells and sinews and fibers, but the visible, simplistic wonder of it is the bloom. The author's work is a trick. I person may not understand why he feels sorrow but he feels it anyway, and later on, he may not understand that this sympathy he feels now is felt because of the previous sadness and the similarities in diction at these two momements combined with some strength in irony and some continuity through motif, but he still feels sympathy, and he still feels the message derived from this sympathy and he feels it all just as true despite not knowing. Only biologists like cells like they do, I mean, I hate cells, but I love flowers. So don't judge me for loving semicolons but don't judge me for not knowing yet how Conrad used them. I only love Heart of Darkness, and I will love it even more in the times to come, but you could never read an analysis and love it just as much as if you did. The thing is to love books. You either love or you don't. There's no grey area, and if you love them, well, then whatever, you'll be fine forever.

This is what Heart of Darkness is: a dream that you listen to and you don't think about because you can't, a dream that you think is wonderful and terrible, and you hear "The horror, the horror!" and think, wow, Kurtz, you summed it up, very impressive. I can't articulate as well as Kurtz can, in a word, but well, Kurtz is a genius. I do know that Marlow has done what Kurtz has: spoken and changed lives and minds. So Marlow is most definitely now Kurtz. And the guys now, are they Kurtz too? Is it infectious. I do believe so. Narrator can see the darkness in the river to come. They say darkness so many times, it's terribly unrepetitive. Gosh, you just don't know what to say. I'll just let you read it. Sorry about the previous preaching but I just can't be bothered to edit. This is just for fun, remember. Here's one of the best paragraphs evr written. It's super long so that will be it.

Read folks, Read.

"However, as you see, I did not join Kurtz there and then. I did not. I remained to ream the nightmare out to the end, and to show my loyalty to Kurtz once more. Destiny. My destiny! Droll thing life is - that mysterious arrangement of merciless logic for a futile purpose. The most you can hope from it is some knowledge of yourself - that comes too late - a crop of unextinguishable regrets. I have wrestled with death. It is the most unexciting contest you can imagine. It takes place in an impalpable greyness, with nothing underfoot, with nothing around, without spectators, without clamour, without glory, ithout the great desire of victory, without the great fear of defat, in a sickly atmosphere of tepid scepticism, without much belief in your own right, and still less in that of your adversary. If such is the form of ultimate wisdom, then life is a greater riddle than some of us think it to be. I was within a hair's breadth of the last oppurtunity for pronouncement, and I found with humiliation that I probably would have nothing to say. This is the reason why I affirm that Kurtz was a remarkable man. He had something to say. He said it. Since I had peeped over the edge myself, I understand better the meaning of his stare, that could not see the flame of the candle, but enough to penetrate all the hearts that beat in the darkness. He had summed up - he had judged. 'The horror!' He was a remarkable man. After all, this was the expression of some sort of belief; it had candour, it had conviction, it had a vibrating note of revolt in its whisper, it had the appalling face of a glimpsed truth - the strange commingling of desire and hate. And it is not my own extremity I remember best - a vision of greyness without form filled with physical pain, and a careless contempt for the evanescence of all things - even of this pain itself. No! It is his extremity that I seem to have lived through. True, he had made that last stride, he had stepped over the edge, while I had been permitted to draw back my hesitating foot. And perhaps in this is the whole difference; perhaps all the wisdom, and all truth, and all insincerity, are just compressed into that inappreciable moment of time inn which we step over the threshold of the invisible. Perhaps! I like to think my summing-up would not have been a word of careless contempt. Better his cry - much better. Itw was an affirmation - a moral victory paid for by innumerable defeats, by abominable terrors, by abominable satisfactions. But it was a victory! That is why I have remained loyal to Kurtz to the last, and even beoynd, when a long time after I heard once more, not hisown voice, but the echo of his magnificent eloquence thrown to me from a soul as transluscently pure a cliff of crystal."

The Secret Sharer

The Secret Sharer is a short story written by Joseph Conrad in 1909. There's actually a great story behind this. Get this, he actually wrote this in two weeks which he called a break from writing his very emotionally-tiring novel "Under Werstern Eyes". It's written in English, Conrad's third language (he write in English in hope that it would improve...) and so yes, Conrad is one of those geniuses which we all hate for leading such wonderfully Renaissance-esque lives. That's Joseph Conrad and off we go.

The story's written in first person past tense and is wonderfully close to the voice. This is what I love about the book. You go so deep within the character's mind, and of course the character is the most important aspect of a book. So yes it's about a young captain (narrator) who, insecure on his new stranger ship with his stranger crew, sneaks a man onboard in the middle of the night and really latches on to him. The man had escaped from his own ship and the captain, intrigued by the "sharer's" physical appearance and situation which so resembled his own, decides to help the man hide for a few days on the ship until finally the captain risks all of their lives and the ship to get the man safely to the shore of a tiny little island. Great stuff. Narration.

The narration is so unbelievably unreliable. I mean it's creepy how unreliable it gets. The guy's a mess, really. He starts out pretty decent: nervous but tranquil, orderly, normal, even eloquent, and then comes the guy. The character's great. He has so many issues, he's so rich in content. Anyway, that's the beauty of the book, the character-change which, being that the story is in first person, affects the writing style so dramatically, and all for the better, I think, concerning intrigue at least. I could go on for miles about this story. Honestly. Ages. You've seen my other entries, and well, it does seem impossible but I was holding off a torrent of words for the other books, and the one fighting at my barrier here is a monster making the other torrents look like little tumbleweed. So thus I will force myself to concentrate now on one subject alone: the answer to the question, "Does the man, Leggatt, exist in the book?"

I think no, but that's probably because that answers a lot more fun. Why else ask the question? There is the obvious argument about how the captain of the other ship comes to our ship and starts asking about Leggatt.However, well, putting that aside, there really is nothing. Leggatt comes, the captain sees him, and Leggatt leaves. That's actually the entire story, and I know it seems boring, but the interesting bit is that the captain gets so attached to him. I feel like I'm going in circles. Okay, well sorry about that. There's he physical appearances for example. I mean, when you describe someone so thoroughly, it s a bit creepy. Anyway, there's that the captain then is convinced they look exactly alike. That's pretty impossible and when the captain of the other ship, the Sephora, comes on, he doesn't make any remark like "By Jove, you look just like Leggatt!" He is suspicious, which is pretty interesting because why would anyone hide Leggatt? but doesn't probe much further. So yes, there's no proof that these two actually look alike. I think it's just Mr. Crazy wishing it in his mind.

Then there's that thing about how much time he spends describing their proximity. I guess I'm just describing just how much the character gets obsessed with the character now then, and how much this might be homosexual... Right, well yes, it comes up constantly, with the whole "our shoulders almost touched", whispering in the ears and all that. Gosh, it is actually pretty vivid. The captain lends his clothes to Leggatt and thinks Leggatt looks even more like him, he looks in on Leggatt while he's sleeping. Really..

Well, then there is the fact that he actually hides him. I mean, when you find some naked guy swimming in the dead of night and you look exactly into each other's eyes after you work out that that thing isn't actually a headless corpse floating about, most people'd run away. Not our captain though. He hides him. Then, you'd think one might consider actually getting the crew together, giving them a little talk of warning and then revealing Leggatt and saying, "Alright what do we do?" But no. Our guy thinks this Leggatt is all the world and the sun and the moon and the universe, and if he is shown, all hell would break loose and demons and whatnot. No, no, no captain. You're overreacting, it's not all that bad at all. But he hides him,keeping him all o himself and almst having a nervous breakdown every single time the steward steps into his room, every time he has to stp on deck, every moment he's away from his double. That's just so darn obsessive. Really. But then there's the strangeness of how Leggatt agrees, freaking out everytime some insignificant thing happens. And what, finally he decides he ought to spend the rest of his life alone going mad on a rock in the middle of the Pacific? That's so wrong. There are so many alternatives. But this is the most romantic, symbolic, and overall haunting of them all, and knowing our captain, that's the choice he would choose for this fantasy version of himself.

Hooray, we have returned to the idea of reality and fantasy! Great, so I said based on our character. Let's expand. Who is the captain? Hmm, well my interpretation is that he's an insecure, introverted, shy young man with too large of an imagination and too little company to keep him straight. What we really know is that he's young and new to the ship. Immediate insecurity. Then you get him being hesitant, thinking of all his actions before and then after he makes them, like the whole volunteering for anchor-duty. And from this you also see his decency, taking care of his crew, being aware of time and not feeling superior, actually feeling he fails in asserting his title of superiority. He does turn a bit vicious towards his mate though, later on, but that's just nerves, I think. Yes, there we go, we start seeing change.

Alright, well, there's the original captain: decent, hesitant, inferior, insecure, introverted, shy, yadayadayada. Then what does he become. Well, he doesn't go up on deck anymore, shirking his duty. He yells "Steward!" all the time and calls the rest of the crew pathetic and such, whimpering.He becomes terribly dodgy too in his actions. He brings the rest of the crew to their moment of death, the ship too, doing this impossible turn in the water, almost crashing, and all for this guy, and Leggatt's not all that great either. While he's turning the ship, he's totally authoritive, as well as when he's spelling out his master plan to Leggatt about the sails and such. Captain definitely would not have been able to come up with that in his old insecurity and hesitation. I mean, the old guy was scared of ghosts, seeing corpses walkking about and all, and now, he's practically a daredevil. After the turn, the crew are sure to respect his ability and I'm sure he's gotten to know the ship very well now. So yes, it could have been a good thing huh. Except for the fact that he got there through this huge tangential endeavor int othe insane.

Concerning Leggatt, Leggatt killed a guy with his bare hands. That's not all too good a thing to say when you first meet a guy. leggatt did though. Strangely enough, our captain was totally fine with it. Disturbing, huh. Then well, what if Leggatt is imagined? What would he have been imagined for? Well my interpretation is that Leggatt is an adventure that Captain wants but can't find. Leggatt is a fantasy of extraordinary for a man who is too far into the ordinary. Leggatt is interesting, daring and all his. The captain holds Leggatt's life in his hands, or at least he would like to think so. See sometimes, you want to be important. You want to influence somebody a lot, even if it is for the worse. You just want to matter, and to matter especially to someone you love. Leggatt gave our guy importance, and so power. Leggatt forced captain to take initiative. Was our guy wanting to have this transformation and just not able to? Well that's just it, maybe. I think so, and I think he went about having the change by going all Fight Club and making his subconsious a real person. That's pretty weak of him, but well, he managed it. I like the way he thinks anyway. It makes for a good book. Nice and dense and a bit creepy, and I like creepy stuff, psychologically creepy that is.

Also there's that hint dropped pretty obviously with the whole he's my double thing. I mean, come on, can it be more clear. The captain literally refers to Leggatt as his other half, his sharer, his twin, his second self. When they are apart, the captain says he has that uncomfortable feeling of when your mind is in two places at once. That's really because they are the same person, I think. It's pretty creepy if it isn't to say the truth of it.

There's this quotation about what captain thinks when he sees Leggatt for the first time down in the water. Last thing, I promise. Well, I'll include it below, but basically he says that he sees Leggatt and is afraid he wants to come on board, naturally, but then finds it all the more frightening to imagine him not wanting to come on board. How cool a way of thinking is that? I mean, you always are afrais of having to personally face something strange, so the first pat's normal enough, but then to go beyond, to think of what else may happen, that's special. I mean, what if he did just turn around, all white and slippery, in the black water of the midnight and just swim away, dipping down into the water and disappearing. That is the creepiest thing ever. Ever! That's merman stuff right there. Sea people. I mean, when you see someone swimming and then drowning in the ocea, that sucks but it's fine because it happens. However, if you see a man have a chance to survive and calmly just turn away and dissappear, it's a bit difficult to imagine them drowning for if they could drown, which they would, why turn away? But then, if he does turn around, then you can't imagine them possibly drowning, so what's the alternative? You swim forever? You have gills? You find some strange oxygen city underwater? It's so absurd and unnatural that it's creepy, and in a way the potential and possibility of it is even more frightening than it as a reality. Gosh it's so creepy, so slippery and moon blue. Shivers. And this is mostly just one sentence and it has no real significance either except maybe to consider to the eerie, fantastic, and unreal light that covers this whole story, and thus contributing to the Leggatt doesn't exist theory. Maybe. But anyway, isn't it nice that Conrad does this stuff in one sentence just because he can. Skills man.

So that's it. I know you're dying to read that quotation so here it will come. I'l let you dive into the wonders of Conrad-world. It's nice and dense and flamboyant and beautiful. Amazing. Heart of darkness will come soon. In the meantime,

Read folks, Read.

"It was inconceivable that he should not attempt to come on board, and strangely troubling to suspect that perhaps he did not want to."

"On my right hand there were lines of fishing stakes resembling a mysterious system of half-submerged bamboo fences, incomprehensible in its division of the domain of tropical fishes, and crazy of aspect as if abandoned forever by some nomad tribe of fisherman now gone to the other end of the ocean; for there was no sign of human habitiation as far as the eye could reach. To the left a group of barren islets, suggesting ruins of stone walls, towers, and blockhouses, had its foundations set in a blue sea that itself looked solid, so still and stable did it lie below my feet; even the track of light from the westering sky shone smoothly, without that animated glitter which tells of an inperceptible ripple. And when I turned my head to take a parting glance at the tug which had just left us anchored outside the bar, I saw the straight line of the flat shore joined to the stable sea, edge to edge, with a perfect and unmarked closeness, in one levelled floor half brown, half blue under the enormous dome of the sky."